Email Testimony
Hey Dave,
Hope all is well with you and Denise. Just wanted to share something and maybe get your thoughts. As long as I can remember I've had sometimes crippling anxiety issues. After becoming a Christian at about 20 years old, I started listening to certain preachers that taught strongly on walking in the love of God and how doing so casts out fear as 1 John says. After making living in and demonstrating the love of God my primary focus, I began to notice that fear indeed had dissipated noticeably although not completely. To try to combat this fear, I would memorize and speak scripture over myself about being courageous and not fearing, read books on the topic, and whatever else I could to try to completely rid myself of that fear that remained. Nothing helped. It was almost always there and still is to this day. I am now 42. In fact, my mother and all her sisters have some sort of anxiety issues.
Well, about a month ago, I started feeling like God was really saying that it was time to deal with the anxiety once and for all. And about 2 weeks ago or so, I saw you and Denise actually did a podcast on fear and I listened to it and felt like I got some good stuff from it and will listen to it again. Well, a couple days later, I started having some kind of arrhythmic heart beat issue that lasted about 5 days. I knew it wasn't a-fib because not only did it feel different than a-fib, I actually haven't experienced any symptoms of a-fib at all since listening to one of the prayers you recorded--I think it was the one where you pray of the nervous system. Anyway, my wife is a nurse and she had me use our at-home EKG reader and the line that showed my heart rhythm on the screen was all over the place to the point where the device thought there was some sort of outside interference and said it was unreadable. (Although my wife could take hers and it showed no issue at all with so-called "outside interference").
During the 5 days of this, I knew it was anxiety related and didn't think it was a coincidence that when I really started trying to go after anxiety again, I was attacked physically. And during this time, I was commanding my heart to beat normally and praying but that did not seem to help at all. When day 5 rolled around, I was still trying to do things as normally as possible and my body would allow, so early in the morning while I thought it would be best, I decided to finish painting our bathroom--a project I had started before this began--but my hand was shaking so wildly, I could hardly do it. So I went back and laid down for awhile and began to think about my anxiety problems again and how I knew that the heart problem I was experiencing was related to it. That's when I thought, "I've never gone to the courts of heaven about this anxiety." So I went into the bedroom and asked the Lord to open a court session regarding this and before anything else I asked the Lord to cleanse me of all unrighteousness by the blood of Jesus. Then I stated my case as to why I shouldn't be living in this near constant state of anxiety and stress. But here's the funny part--after I stated my case, I realized I hadn't asked that any accusations against me be made known so I could agree with it and plead the blood over it. So I asked the Judge to allow my accuser to say whatever it was that gave him the right to afflict me with fear. I looked over at the demon and it looked as though he had a paper or scroll, maybe, that he held out in front of himself and as he opened his mouth and began to read the accusations, the Judge flung out his hand and pointed at him and shouted most authoritatively, "SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!!" I was kind of taken aback but then I realized that because I had already pled the blood over myself, God was not going to allow that demon to say a word against me. It was a very powerful moment for me. The demon was not allowed to say anything else. After I was done, I thanked the Lord and noticed that my heart was beating completely normally again. Praise God for that!
Andy
Hey Dave,
Hope all is well with you and Denise. Just wanted to share something and maybe get your thoughts. As long as I can remember I've had sometimes crippling anxiety issues. After becoming a Christian at about 20 years old, I started listening to certain preachers that taught strongly on walking in the love of God and how doing so casts out fear as 1 John says. After making living in and demonstrating the love of God my primary focus, I began to notice that fear indeed had dissipated noticeably although not completely. To try to combat this fear, I would memorize and speak scripture over myself about being courageous and not fearing, read books on the topic, and whatever else I could to try to completely rid myself of that fear that remained. Nothing helped. It was almost always there and still is to this day. I am now 42. In fact, my mother and all her sisters have some sort of anxiety issues.
Well, about a month ago, I started feeling like God was really saying that it was time to deal with the anxiety once and for all. And about 2 weeks ago or so, I saw you and Denise actually did a podcast on fear and I listened to it and felt like I got some good stuff from it and will listen to it again. Well, a couple days later, I started having some kind of arrhythmic heart beat issue that lasted about 5 days. I knew it wasn't a-fib because not only did it feel different than a-fib, I actually haven't experienced any symptoms of a-fib at all since listening to one of the prayers you recorded--I think it was the one where you pray of the nervous system. Anyway, my wife is a nurse and she had me use our at-home EKG reader and the line that showed my heart rhythm on the screen was all over the place to the point where the device thought there was some sort of outside interference and said it was unreadable. (Although my wife could take hers and it showed no issue at all with so-called "outside interference").
During the 5 days of this, I knew it was anxiety related and didn't think it was a coincidence that when I really started trying to go after anxiety again, I was attacked physically. And during this time, I was commanding my heart to beat normally and praying but that did not seem to help at all. When day 5 rolled around, I was still trying to do things as normally as possible and my body would allow, so early in the morning while I thought it would be best, I decided to finish painting our bathroom--a project I had started before this began--but my hand was shaking so wildly, I could hardly do it. So I went back and laid down for awhile and began to think about my anxiety problems again and how I knew that the heart problem I was experiencing was related to it. That's when I thought, "I've never gone to the courts of heaven about this anxiety." So I went into the bedroom and asked the Lord to open a court session regarding this and before anything else I asked the Lord to cleanse me of all unrighteousness by the blood of Jesus. Then I stated my case as to why I shouldn't be living in this near constant state of anxiety and stress. But here's the funny part--after I stated my case, I realized I hadn't asked that any accusations against me be made known so I could agree with it and plead the blood over it. So I asked the Judge to allow my accuser to say whatever it was that gave him the right to afflict me with fear. I looked over at the demon and it looked as though he had a paper or scroll, maybe, that he held out in front of himself and as he opened his mouth and began to read the accusations, the Judge flung out his hand and pointed at him and shouted most authoritatively, "SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!!" I was kind of taken aback but then I realized that because I had already pled the blood over myself, God was not going to allow that demon to say a word against me. It was a very powerful moment for me. The demon was not allowed to say anything else. After I was done, I thanked the Lord and noticed that my heart was beating completely normally again. Praise God for that!
Andy